In my previous post, I mentioned the starting of a series of baby steps, with the idea that they would eventually lead me towards bigger goals. Well today I’m going to talk about one of my first steps – it involves a tramp and a hike, an expedition if you will, through my mountain of junk.
My earthly processions have grown exponentially over the years, with each year, more and more media devices; collectibles; books; games; CDs; DVDs; Blu-Rays and other miscellaneous bits and pieces finding their way into my collection. I am somewhat ashamed to admit it, but despite all the money I have spent, despite all the little bits and pieces that I own, at the end of the day I have very little to show for it.
There are just so many things that I own and love, but rarely see or use, and sadly, in some cases things things I have never opened, and most likely never will. Action figures and collectible statuettes for example; special collector’s editions of older games; books purchased from sales but I have never gotten round to, or books that I have started but have never gotten round to finishing… all that and more, just sitting around gathering dust. Many of these are things that I have had for years, things that I love; things that I treasure; things, that I consider to be my- well, as Gollum would say, “my precious”.
It is depressing to see how my life has gotten to a stage, where I not only find myself surrounded by useless junk, with no money, property, or savings. It is no longer a case of me owning my wealth – much like Gollum, I find myself at a stage where I am now a prisoner of my own belongings, trapped by my own precious processions. Well, it is for that reason I am taking this grand expedition through my mountain, and have started the task of systematically eliminating various items from my collection. In the past week alone I have thrown away years worth of PC games, collector’s editions, books, and various types of collectibles. And right now, I am in the process of going through my console games, CDs, DVDs and Blu-Rays, looking for titles to sell or trade in.
Though it breaks my heart, throwing things away left and right the way I am doing right now – I would have to admit, the whole experience is surprisingly exhilarating and gratifying. With each item thrown away, another brick from the wall of my self imposed prison is being knocked down. With each item eliminated, another window is being created on the wall, allowing the light of freedom to shine through.
Anyways to be honest at this stage I don’t really feel that much freer or lighter, and, looking at my sheer amount of junk I must say I am barely making a dent. However, that brings me back to the whole point of this tramp through my mountain: it is but a baby step. The idea behind these baby steps is that it doesn’t matter if I don’t move in leaps and bounds, or perhaps if I move so slowly that I won’t ever make it to my goal – it doesn’t matter if I fail in what I set out to do even. What matters is that I am moving, and, as the old saying goes – “Even the longest journey begins with a single step.” Perhaps I have way too much love for commercialism for me to ever truly be free – but someday, who knows, I just might get there.