Time, like a thief in the night, is slowly creeping up on me, and day by day, I am finding it increasingly more difficult being a gamer. Maybe it is a case of me getting older and slower, and not being able to keep up with the hectic pace of this modern day world. It might be a case of the games and their communities, having moved down a different evolutionary path then the one I have been travelling. Or it might even just be a simple case of the sheer volume of games released, and a lack of time on my part.
Whatever the case is, looking back on 2010, I have come to realised just how tired, how burnt out, and to a degree how fed up I am with gaming in general. Looking back at at all the games I have played; the games I have yet to play; the games I have finished; the ones I have yet to finish; and the ones I have abandoned… It all just bring up such negative emotions in me.
It frustrates the hell out of me, looking at refreshing new games like Heavy Rain and Demon Souls (okay from 2009, but was released in Europe in 2010), and seeing how they failed to revolutionise or even make a splash in the industry. Or looking at abandoned products like Sony’s PSP Go, at how badly implemented and supported that device was, and at how so much wasted potential there was.
It makes my blood boil looking at companies like Apple, Activision-Blizzard, and even companies like Zynga, with their overpriced overrated products that everyone just seem to love with a mindless passion. What’s worse is seeing the unstoppable momentum these companies have built up, and seeing all the other companies out there making regurgitated copycat clones of their products, trying to emulate their successes.
And don’t get me started on things like the PSMove and the Kinect, or non-gaming things like the Kobo; autotune; idiots who releases weblinks and free classic books as paid-apps (and the idiots who encourages more of such stupidity by buying them); Twilight (damn sparkly “vampires”) and the whole pseudo vampire craze; vuvuzelas; and of course, Justin damned Bieber.
Right now there is just so much frustration, and so much anger cooking inside of me – 2010 has brought me to a bubbling simmer, and this year of prolong cooking has left me a dried up emotional mess on the inside. And so, I find myself looking at 2011 with a skeptical eye, and wondering just how I will fare in this brand new year. Will I finally be pushed to the boiling point and beyond? Or will my faith and passion for gaming (and indeed humanity) be restored in a glorious non-stopping train of double rainbows? I guess ladies and gentlemen, only time will tell.